i am just not used to being that one lone figure
wondering aimlessly around
and slipping silently into a crowded room when no one even turns to look
its like this entire scene out of a nightmare
where you are the last girl left standing on the line after everyone has called out the names of the members on their teams
you stay there as all eyes gaze at you and you shift your weight unconfortably around and twiddle your fingers uneasily,
wishing that the floor will simply open up and swallow you whole.
you are the one relegated to the farthest corner at lunch
busying yourself by staring down at your plate but never really eating your food
simply looking occupied and willing the bell to ring so that you can simply just run away home to hide.
everyone's in a circle and i on the outside.
they say that it is in a crowd that you feel the most alone.
i couldnt agree more.